Mistakes---Simply Lessons Learned

In life....we do things. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads, others we wish would have never done. But everything, absolutely everything we have done through out our lives has molded us into exactly who we are supposed to be. If we hadn't done any of those things we would not be the same person we are right now, today.

We are all going to make mistakes...that's part of it. But are they really mistakes or just lessons that we needed to learn at that time? We should never regret...if it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad it's experience.

So I guess what I am getting at is we should never second guess what we have done, where we have been and most importantly who we are. We are who we are and that is as it should be. We all need to remind ourselves from time to time that it's OK not to be perfect and that we are not the mistakes that we've made.

Drink Champagne For No Reason ;)

Don't ever save anything for a special occasion. Every day you're alive is a special occasion.

Here lately I try to focus on these words. I think about them in every day things that I do. I think about all the things that I have done without realizing that they were special. I do believe these words could change my life....

I need to read more and dust and vacuum less. I need to be sitting on the deck and admiring the view without fussing about my backyard, or lack there of that the dogs have desrtoyed. I need to spend more time with my family and friends and less time cooped up in the house. "Whenever possible, life should be a pattern of experience to savor, not endure." I'm trying to recognize these moments now and cherish them.

I'm not "saving" anything anymore; we need to use our good china and crystal for every special event-such as losing a pound, getting the sink unstopped, the first dandelion at spring.

I'm going to wear my good dress to the grocery if I feel like it. My theory is if I look prosperous, I can shell out $28.49 for one small bag of groceries without wincing. I'm not saving my good perfume for special parties anymore; I'll wear it every day, clerks in stores and librarians in libraries have noses that function as well as my party-going friends'.

"Someday" and "one of these days" are losing their grip on my vocabulary. If it's worth seeing or hearing or doing, I want to see and hear and do it NOW! We never know what day could be our last.....and it's those little things left undone that would make me angry if I knew that my hours were limited. Angry because I put off seeing good Friends whom I was going to get in touch with-someday. Angry because I hadn't written certain letters that I intended to write-one of these days. I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold back, or save anything that would add laughter and luster to my life.

 Every day, every minute, every breath truly is...a gift from God.

I don't have to make up silly stories about people being hit by buses or crushed by falling disco balls for you to understand where I am coming from here. Take this opportunity to set a new trend and don't ever save anything for a special occasion. EVERY day you're alive is a special occasion!!!

Come.....Go

 Feelings come and feelings go. There is no need to be scared of  them and definitely no need to crave them. You have to let them come, and then let them go. It's that easy and yet that hard. However no feeling is your permanent reality, no matter how intense it is. Sometimes you have to be smart enough to hold on but brave enough to let go. I tend to hold on to outcomes quite often when really I should be holding on to faith.


For now I am going to focus on the things that are constant:


the sunrise
books finish (sometimes happily)
locked doors can be unlocked
trees produce oxygen
i produce carbon dioxide
stars die all the time
change, change is constant
and the music will never end.

Enough Said

I think we, as living, breathing human beings, aren’t even consciously aware of our existence most of the time. 


We float around like listless ghosts from one dull place to another, fading into the background, and just hoping for something MORE. 


We yearn to break free from this inescapable cycle of monotony, but we just don’t know how.

MOI

I'm the type of woman who makes cookies just to eat a scoop or two of the raw dough but could care less about the cookies once they are baked.


I'm the kind of woman who doesn't believe in black and white. It's just not that simple.


I am the type of woman who loves to feel the wind in her hair.

  I'm the kind of woman who thinks rainy days are meant for playing in it, naps, reading, and watching independent  films, not necessarily in that order.


I am the sorta woman who loves to express myself either through art, dance, writing or even by hair color or tattoos.

I'm the sorta  woman who has a love/hate relationship with my small town, I love the area but hate that as the years go on the opportunities diminish.


I am the type of woman that try's to get things done before the microwave beeps. :)


I am the kind of woman that tends to care about people who don't care about me.


I'm the kind of woman who doesn't have concrete life plans, but rather chooses to just go with the flow seeing where the journey leads me.

I am the type of woman that LOVES to sleep but usually ends up reading through the night.


I am the sorta woman that's ready to believe all those convincing lies, unfortunately.


I am the kind of woman who likes to be alone with just my thoughts at least once a day.

I am the type of woman who can never decide what she wants to eat. UNLESS there is a monte cristo on the menu, if so I'm getting that :P


I am the kind of woman who takes everything to heart.


I'm the kind of woman who has no problem admitting my deepest feelings on this blog but usually don't want to discuss them with people face to face.

Follow Your Heart and You Wont Get Lost

Throughout my life I have been in situations that I had to either go with my gut or listen to my head. I am trying to figure out from what I have learned is it better to go with my gut feeling; to follow my heart or listen to my head. My head, I’ve come to realize is usually the grown up decision, but does that make it right? Sometimes…maybe. Like when I know something is right, and it’s what my heart wants to do, but I end up making a decision at odds with that gut feeling. Only because there are other people and responsibilities in my life that I need to consider.

I had a moment today which led me to realize that thinking with your head is not always the right course of action. I am not saying lets all be reckless by no means. What I am saying is that there are times when you need to let your feelings and your heart outweigh your head.
There are times when you will say to yourself that some things are more important than a gut feeling but along with that realization, you also need to remember that there are times when it is now or never. Times where you won’t get a redo. Times when you need to go with your gut or you will regret it later in life.

I think that we all need to take the time to remember how important it is to listen to your feelings just as much and at times even more than your head. Listen to your heart…it doesn’t lie.

Like Crazy

Hmmm, I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it. But I didn't, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. 


I didn't realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it's the halves that halve you in half. I didn't know, don't know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.