“Shades of grey wherever I go The more I find out the less that I know Black and white is how it should be But shades of grey are the colors I see.”
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Not All Who Wander Are Lost
I get lost in thought while driving ...tuning out Stori my daughter in the back seat, whatever I am listening to on Pandora and the outside noises. They all just fade and my mind wonders. I am not sure where it goes but when I snap out of it I don't know how I made it from point a to point b.
I love that I have a window above my kitchen sink. When I stand there and wash my hands my mind wonders. I rub and rub my hands together making as many suds as possible and rinse my hands under cold water all while gazing out the window and usually with a smile on my face. This small insignificant moment is one of my favorite things.
What I am getting at here is my mind wanders A LOT.
Maybe I am bored with reality or living in regret of not taking advantage of reality. I like this wandering most of the time but I am afraid that when I look back my memories will be filled of being in la la land...of a time when I was building up a fictional universe.
There is a lot going on in my life right now and several big changes are taking place soon and maybe I am trying to avoid it all because I am scared. UGH I don't know. Maybe these thoughts and thought habits are not useful and I'm wondering if I fall into that thought habit because I'd rather do that than think of things I really should be spending thought and energy on.
Or maybe I am just an outside-the-box thinker and during the times when I am in the "zone" I get my creativity. It is when I get most of my brilliant ideas. Maybe it is my bodies way of telling me I need more meditation???
I really have no idea what the answer is or if I am even looking for an answer this is just simply my $0.02.
Maybe I should write a book about the life I live inside my head.
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